Story about life messed up somehow now

[blabahtant]

So my life is fucked up and I searched google for such fucked up life websites.

I know my life was just fine about 8 weeks ago but can't figure out why its now fucked. I thought to read some google websites with "fucked up lifes and messed up life stories" may help me to determine why. So I found this forum because I read this post "i-gave-a-homeless-guy-80-bucks-my-life-been-saved-by-seagulls-and-my-penis-work" which is posted here by a member. Ok then here is my story.

About 8 weeks ago I went to a beach and helped a person (female). She had lost her son and mother shortly before and was out of work she told me. I could feel her sadness and it was my honest wish to help her out - show her she is strong and that she will come thru this. I asked her if she is in connection with her mom or son - somehow. And she said yes, thru other people and even her moms cat. Then she told me about the cat of her mom. She told me the cat seemed to remind he of her mom sometimes and she felt as if the mom spoke to her thru the cat. I knew what she was talking about (google it if you dont believe those things) and told her about MY cat who also transmitted for me a message from a former cat I had as a child.

Befor we parted I asked her if she would like to hug and she did. She told me "you are blessed" and "but you know that already". She also called my mate a lucky person, because he has me all the time around. My mate said "I know that!". And we parted.

Not long after that day (twas a Sunday) I started to feel deeply depressed. I could not get rid of the depression which grew each day. To make it short, I got then helped by another person who gave ME a hug. This really safed my life. I had known I was drowning and would not have gotten rid of depression. But after this hug I felt wonderful! Thankful and grateful and great!
But not only that. I also felt guilt and wrong and whatever, because it seemed to me while I could give hugs and support... I was unable to feel ok when getting a hug. This hug however was given with love only. But no matter what I felt - my mind started to talk me into GUILT. So I went on, half happy and half feeling guilty and wrong. But this hug fixed something in me I had since I was a child. I had never ever gotten a safe and loving hug in my childhood EVER!

I had then the weired feeling that somehow the universe did make that hug I got happen for me. Further I had the idea that many people knew (subconsciously) about this was going to happen. (The woman at the beach, my mate, my brother, I myself and one or two of my friends. We talk here of a knowing below the normal awake state the "subconsciousness" of all of them and myself.)

Then my CAT disappeared!!! And I got REALLT SAD. Becaue of the hug I had gotten by my new friend my sadness was intense but I could bear it because of my new friendship.

But now my cat had disappeared. I sat down and listed all things that happend before it. I talked to my new friend and he said he believes my cat will show up. I doubt it I said. I was afraid he might disappear too and I would be left with nothing and no one. I know people think it is just an animal, but believe me they are as valuable and great as humans (and more at times) and they have a great way of loving us, completly in a safe and honest way.

Now to make it short my new friend is not to find. I hope this is only temporarelly - I hope he is just on vacation. It's just becaue I am tense. It's just because I have not the right vibes.
But I feel fucked and warned and have fear real fear because when he is not showing up I'll get crazy over that cat that is not here. Because its my favorite cat an because I just dono wana any more mess life. I know I don't want any more negative stuff to happen. But how can I focus on good things? Who wants my life make a mess? ME?

I know cat and him is somewhere - out there - but I seem not to be able to join the right realtiy. Whatever it is the shit hit the fan when I went to the beach to help that lovley person there and now MY life is definately FUCKED! WHY?

When reading the post I mentioned above I wanted to read the earlier post of the writer, because I guess he might have the answer. My guess is he concentrated (or you if it was you) onto the loss of errection (if I read the second post right) and then his life got bad.
Somehow I must have done the same thing. But onto what did I just focus? (Losing?) And why do I have this weired feeling that this has been ALL set up for me (maybe by me?!) to experience? I just thinK (and sorry here) shit law of attraction (sorry). I would give a begger 100 dollars if that worked. I dont think it is the amount.

And to the seeguls? I can only say it works that way. When I have a bad day (other than this above) often white birds fly in front of my car or cross so sharp my window of car that I need to break and NOTICE. White birds (NO KIDDEN) somehow come and tell me "slow down". Perhaps I an blind somehow now, or too whatever and no birds come to me anymore?!

Just sad. An feeling like crying but I dont cause no one is here to sit with me an be my friend. Alone? The tears would not stop anymore an I would just wana die if I'd let the pain come thru.
So I focus onto the positive and now thanks for listening. I hardly will be back to read what you guys or people wrote, cause I dono wana feel even worse cause of your perhaps fucking answers. Dont take it personally.

[Turkey]

Try cutting your wrist, It's worked for my uncle.

Edit: Why would you post this in serious debates?

[Paintcheck]

Was anyone else hoping this would turn into a Fresh Prince of Bel-Air thing?

[Ping-Pong]

Was anyone else hoping this would turn into a Fresh Prince of Bel-Air thing?

I missed you so much.

[R3BooT]

So my life is fucked up and I searched google for such fucked up life websites.

I know my life was just fine about 8 weeks ago but can't figure out why its now fucked. I thought to read some google websites with "fucked up lifes and messed up life stories" may help me to determine why. So I found this forum because I read this post "i-gave-a-homeless-guy-80-bucks-my-life-been-saved-by-seagulls-and-my-penis-work" which is posted here by a member. Ok then here is my story.

About 8 weeks ago I went to a beach and helped a person (female). She had lost her son and mother shortly before and was out of work she told me. I could feel her sadness and it was my honest wish to help her out - show her she is strong and that she will come thru this. I asked her if she is in connection with her mom or son - somehow. And she said yes, thru other people and even her moms cat. Then she told me about the cat of her mom. She told me the cat seemed to remind he of her mom sometimes and she felt as if the mom spoke to her thru the cat. I knew what she was talking about (google it if you dont believe those things) and told her about MY cat who also transmitted for me a message from a former cat I had as a child.

Befor we parted I asked her if she would like to hug and she did. She told me "you are blessed" and "but you know that already". She also called my mate a lucky person, because he has me all the time around. My mate said "I know that!". And we parted.

Not long after that day (twas a Sunday) I started to feel deeply depressed. I could not get rid of the depression which grew each day. To make it short, I got then helped by another person who gave ME a hug. This really safed my life. I had known I was drowning and would not have gotten rid of depression. But after this hug I felt wonderful! Thankful and grateful and great!
But not only that. I also felt guilt and wrong and whatever, because it seemed to me while I could give hugs and support... I was unable to feel ok when getting a hug. This hug however was given with love only. But no matter what I felt - my mind started to talk me into GUILT. So I went on, half happy and half feeling guilty and wrong. But this hug fixed something in me I had since I was a child. I had never ever gotten a safe and loving hug in my childhood EVER!

I had then the weired feeling that somehow the universe did make that hug I got happen for me. Further I had the idea that many people knew (subconsciously) about this was going to happen. (The woman at the beach, my mate, my brother, I myself and one or two of my friends. We talk here of a knowing below the normal awake state the "subconsciousness" of all of them and myself.)

Then my CAT disappeared!!! And I got REALLT SAD. Becaue of the hug I had gotten by my new friend my sadness was intense but I could bear it because of my new friendship.

But now my cat had disappeared. I sat down and listed all things that happend before it. I talked to my new friend and he said he believes my cat will show up. I doubt it I said. I was afraid he might disappear too and I would be left with nothing and no one. I know people think it is just an animal, but believe me they are as valuable and great as humans (and more at times) and they have a great way of loving us, completly in a safe and honest way.

Now to make it short my new friend is not to find. I hope this is only temporarelly - I hope he is just on vacation. It's just becaue I am tense. It's just because I have not the right vibes.
But I feel fucked and warned and have fear real fear because when he is not showing up I'll get crazy over that cat that is not here. Because its my favorite cat an because I just dono wana any more mess life. I know I don't want any more negative stuff to happen. But how can I focus on good things? Who wants my life make a mess? ME?

I know cat and him is somewhere - out there - but I seem not to be able to join the right realtiy. Whatever it is the shit hit the fan when I went to the beach to help that lovley person there and now MY life is definately FUCKED! WHY?

When reading the post I mentioned above I wanted to read the earlier post of the writer, because I guess he might have the answer. My guess is he concentrated (or you if it was you) onto the loss of errection (if I read the second post right) and then his life got bad.
Somehow I must have done the same thing. But onto what did I just focus? (Losing?) And why do I have this weired feeling that this has been ALL set up for me (maybe by me?!) to experience? I just thinK (and sorry here) shit law of attraction (sorry). I would give a begger 100 dollars if that worked. I dont think it is the amount.

And to the seeguls? I can only say it works that way. When I have a bad day (other than this above) often white birds fly in front of my car or cross so sharp my window of car that I need to break and NOTICE. White birds (NO KIDDEN) somehow come and tell me "slow down". Perhaps I an blind somehow now, or too whatever and no birds come to me anymore?!

Just sad. An feeling like crying but I dont cause no one is here to sit with me an be my friend. Alone? The tears would not stop anymore an I would just wana die if I'd let the pain come thru.
So I focus onto the positive and now thanks for listening. I hardly will be back to read what you guys or people wrote, cause I dono wana feel even worse cause of your perhaps fucking answers. Dont take it personally.

This is a gaming community with people who don't care. I'll suggest that you take this story to another forum before you get troll'd.

[GeneralGold]

Don't be that mean, and yes people WILL troll you here. Copy and paste this to another forums, gaming forums are where trolls come from. But I am confused, you feel like your life is fucked because of a cat and someone left you?

Your life isn't over.

[Ping-Pong]

Do what OJ Simpson did.

[Silver Knight]

Ping Pong don't post bullshit in the general section. GVC only.

[Ravanger]

Ahahha you allz got trolled ahhaha, its a funny to Rav. Looks like we got a Moutain king here. We are all the victems not zee poster so all you Trollz are really being trolled.

[Turkey]

Ahahha you allz got trolled ahhaha, its a funny to Rav. Looks like we got a Moutain king here. We are all the victems not zee poster so all you Trollz are really being trolled.

why are you a admin exactly?

[lolKieck]

cool

[N3gativezero]

Was anyone else hoping this would turn into a Fresh Prince of Bel-Air thing?

Iiiiiiiin west Philidelphia born and raised

On the playground is where I spent most of my days

'Till a couple of guys, they were up to no good, started causing trouble in my neighborhood

I got in one little fight and my momma got scared-

So I asked a bunch of trolls for help.

[Ralazo]

http://www.youtube.com/v/HE7kr5udOfI&autoplay=1&loop=1